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In case your wandering. I got bored with dark layouts, so I changed. I’m not too sure if these are just meant to be colours or are things hanging down from the trees. But I like it anyway. It’s a change.
Shakira’s new single was leaked today, the Spanish version. I really like it. Infact I’ve been listening to it over and over, trying to make some sense of words. I think I might need to look up the lyrics! It’s called She-Wolf, so I’m expecting a ‘animal’ themed tour – which I wana go to! But that leads to another problem! I will most likley go with Naomi and Aimee, but what about Alex? No really? I don’t know what’s been happening with him latley, so what about him? He’s hardly made any effort, doesn’t talk to me or anything. Something’s up. I also don’t know if I would go with him. He’ll most likley just be-friend me for it; also. When he said he’d never take anything else but weed… guess what he might have started on… Pills. Estacy? I’m not sure, I heard him on loud speaker “Popping pills”. I’m not too good with drug slang, so someone might need to translate for me. I havn’t made any effort with him ether. Why should I? He never replys to my texts or rang me to come out, I always rang. Like one day, he walked straight past me to sit with Girvan, didn’t even look at me! Drugs are horrible. How or why would anyone take them?
Shakira’s new single’s below – but be quick before it gets deleted by YouTube.
I’m also wandering. Right, you know ORAL? Not the Spanish kind. When lesbians have oral, or foreplay – why does it count as sex? It is just foreplay. I know they don’t have a, penis, but I don’t understand why general playfulness counts as popping the cherry. It’s like what most couples start of with, isn’t it though? So, if it count’s as sex, do most Lesbians wait until “they are ready” or do they just… (I don’t know a term, it’s not ‘ride’ or ‘buck’ or ‘shag’… or…) yeah, Shag. When it comes to oral, do they like, like, ALL tastes of fanny, or does some make them feel sick? If lesbians are supposedly more manly than girls – do they let it grow? Or do they shave, like most straight girls? Or do they trip, like guys? If they had a chance, would the majority of them grow a penis? Would they loose their boobs?
It’s all very confusing if you ask me.
The park is dead. Not literally, but yet, knowone wants to hang out their. Rightfully. It is boring, and now that the immature Junior High is off it will be overrun by, dumb, chavs. No really – they are dumb. The words they know are “meet” “goth” “emo” “come on!” “startin’?”. Looking back, I cringe to think I was once like that – except, I was most likley the more weird of the kind. In the park their is SO many headmelts, seriously. Can’t they just die. And I’m expecting Daira to come back down. We’ve all split. Your having a nice, lovley, warm, fun day, then who comes down around four? And army of headmelts! (The YMCA), fucking hell. Why do they always seem to find us, or come to ‘the tree’. I dislike most of them so much, I had to turn the Lurgan Mail round today – they are in the front cover. GR! It makes me so angry at some of the wanabes.
I LOVE AIMEE! I really really really do. It has been the most funest week with her Gemma, Lauren and Saffron. I really do love them so much. I enjoy being with them all day, everyday! You’s are just so nice, and I’m glad we get on.
I think me and Naomi are the best couple. I really do. Every other couple seems to be, well, not function as well as me and Naomi do. We have our flow of outlets, we have our promises, are secrets and our privacy. We are quite a private couple, we don’t make a big deal out of kissing or any of that, we don’t even tell our friends most of our problems or tiffs, or bore them with tales of what we did or are planning to do (no- stop thinking about sex). We only tell who we want too, and that’s not too many people. In fact. At the most it’s 5 people. Aimee and Hollie being the main two. Yet even they don’t know everything. We fight and usually at the most it takes half an hour for one of us to appologies and then we get on as if nothing has happened. We work that way. We argue to tell each other our faults, then we work on it. Then we work. Naomi is so my life, I really love her more than anyone (I think) in the world. I really really really really love her.
I just just thinking. I am weird. I have been weird since third year, carefully moulded by Alison. I always had a different attitude to life and how it works and was big on the EQUAL thing, I also grew up with them, around gays, goths, emos and bi’s. I now understand how they live, and I think I still stick by the EQUAL rule. Until you understand anyone, you should never say anything. For all you know their life could be 1000 times better or worse than yours. I was told that I was known over the Junior High, not because of my coolness, smartness or deadon-ness, but because of my wierdness. I consider the term “weird” to be a code for “unique”. So if anyone says anything bad or good about you. Take it as a complement. If everyone was like them… what a boring world.
“In order to be irreplaceable one must always be different”
More problems have arose, but if anyone asks I’ll give them a piece of my mind. MIND YOUR OWN FUCKING BUSINESS. I’m just hope knowone I like asks because I really will explode. The whole of Lurgan is just corrupt. They way they just talk and gossip, take sides and are SO CHILDISH. Be ashamed Lurgan, be ashamed.
My life is odd. I guess so anyway. Their is endless problems in my family and friends. But when it comes to protecting one another – we will FIGHT! That’s why I love them so much (even my brother and sister)!
CIAO 
